I just want to listen to music through the headphones of the globe, I'll mix their screams with the cries of laughter. I'll cross over from obese greed and drown it in tragedy. I'll take one shot to a building and ignore the millions of bombs we drop to compensate for our more expensive lives. I'll bask in the glory of being able to eat the African families weight, malnourished and all. I'll parade around in clothes I don't need, expelling exhaust. "everything i could say would feed into insignificance"

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The Answer

The way she sings soothes me, so beautiful.


I am going to erase Sean Mullen, legally declare him dead. Death certificate and everything and birth myself a new life, with a new social security number and a new record. If illegal aliens can do it to live in this country it is my right as an American to partake in the festivities.

As I wonder

"Today the words don't mean enough for us to say"

I stare into the toilet and I urinate. It seems like I'm spending minutes, not seconds, holding my penis and emptying my bladder. So I ponder and think about what else I want to extract from my life. I think about all my friends that I have lost to Heroin, either physically, mentally, or just simply lost.

To: all those who do heroin and/or oxycotton recreationally

Stay the fuck away from me. I am sorry and this doesn't help an addict, but I must honestly say this to thee:

'Anyone who does those drugs recreationally is DEAD to me.'

No I'm not being insensitive, I'm just emotionally distraught from the death of a dear friend, the rehab of others and the lost of communication with the rest. Once this drug becomes a part of a persons life there is no room for anything else and they never truly quit. I am thankful for every day that I've not ever partaken in this dance. Because I'd be in the gutter, dead or pissing on myself and on my way there.

What I'm trying to communicate

I want to blame the business aspect of Art for the downfall of originality. The current approach is sell what is being sold. So we are struggling economically everywhere and many are choosing to play it safe. As an artist, I know how boring safe is.

I give credit to the music industry, in the last decade it has significantly undergone serious change, yet it is constantly adapting to it. The fall of Tower Records, most people live on mp3s and yes the film industry may also be pirated, but there isn't really devices built encouraging it. Mp3 players do play videos, but people are still buying and renting DvDs.

And yet despite this, the film industry is remaking, remaking, remaking, remaking, reselling, reselling, recycling what has already been sold, what is already selling and available on the market. They are just giving it new names and making tiny changes.

I guess the music industry has always been about the performance when it comes to making a profit. The records are a means of promoting and with internet blogs, such as our very own http://boppernation.com, as well as many social networking platforms and even online stores itunes, amazon and beatport.com.

And I wonder how important the performance has been for Films, aka the Theater. And how are they getting people to go? Yes they have brought in some form of revolution: 3D. A new experience, something to make it exciting again. Well I'm glad they are adapting there, is it possible to adapt the content? The answer is YES, but as long as people keep buying the crap there is no reason to stop selling.

There needs to be a gap between the artist and the business - a bridge, a mediator and its need to be neutral.

idk where I'm going just jotting down thoughts.



Let me start. The future is upon us: [WhereuBn]

TO: Mainstream Consumers

What should I sell? As a businessman we are left with no choice but to respect the 'trendy,' or are we? There is a majority rule that says yes, play it safe, sell what has already been sold and already in high demand.

It was a great mentor that once taught me to not disrespect and hate those who flock. 'Every single person out there is a fan or potential fan.' But I am troubled. I thought the most important lesson High School had to offer was that I am free to live in a world surrounded by the people I like. That I no longer have to pretend to get along with people that bother me. And I am wrong.

Just because I am no longer in a legally forced environment that socially demands I be friendly to all, I still have to be friendly to all. That is good business, that is work, that is a job. And it is not good PR for me to attack and hate unless I choose a 'commonly accepted enemy.'

Back to my struggle. I am an artist, creator and leader. What is more important, my own opinion, or the economically accepted opinion? It does seem some artist successfully sell a product that they truly do love and those people happily sing.

[lost my train of thought]