Live each moment

So I realized today that if I woke up tomorrow with the house I want, the car I want, the income I want and all those other things than I may be ecstatic for a moment, this moment could last days, weeks, months maybe even years...but eventually it would pass. The real thing that makes all of those dreams and ambitions amazing is having them, striving for them, dreaming about them, lusting for them tasting them and working towards achieving them. Nothing compares to all of that. Its a cheezy thing, but in the Notorious movie Big E talks about Tupac telling him to enjoy the 'coming up' part, cuz thats the best part. And every fortune cookie has dropped a line or two about, "Happiness is the journey not that desination" and it all just makes sense. I guess the moral of the story is this, never stop striving and dreaming, because the second you have everything in your life that you could ever possibly desire, there is nothing left to strive for or aim towards. I know you self cenetered pricks would love to say that "i am inspired by me" or would love to be the one to 'set the bar,' but the truth is....its fucking depressing setting the bar. Its lonely being on top.

On Apple Products

When it comes to apple products, i feel as though someone keeps trying to sell me a Hamburger. Except the first time they sold me just the hamburger patty, the second time they told me if i buy the hamburger patty i get lettuce. The third time they said if i buy the patty, i get lettuce and a bun. The forth time they said if I buy the Hamburger patty i get lettuce, bun and onions. The fifth time they told me that if i buy the Hamburger i get the patty, Buns, lettuce, and grilled onions. It wasn't until the 6th time that they added a new application, Sauce, to the Hamburger already composed of buns, lettuce and grilled onions. The seventh time they told me that I could buy a hamburger with two patties, a bun, lettuce, grilled onions and sauce. This continued until one day i was able to buy my Double Double Animal style (A burger with all the works, grilled)

Paraphilia

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Dictionary:
"paraphilia |ˌparəˈfilēə|
noun Psychiatry
a condition characterized by abnormal sexual desires, typically involving extreme or dangerous activities"

Derived from Greek para: Besides and Philia: love.
"refers to powerful and persistent sexual interest other than in copulatory or precopulatory behavior with phenotypically normal, consenting adult human partners" (wikipedia.org).

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Here is a list of Paraphilia's provided by Wikipedia:

Formal name	Attraction to ___	Refs / see also	DSM code[3]
Abasiophilia	physically disabled people, leg braces, etc
Acrotomophilia	amputees	[4][5]
Agalmatophilia	statues, mannequins, immobility	[6]
Algolagnia	physical pain, particularly involving an erogenous zone	[7]
Andromimetophilia	female-to-male transsexuals	[4][8]
Apotemnophilia	being an amputee	[4][9]
Asphyxiophilia	strangulation of oneself, loss of control of one's own breathing. Also, constriction.	[4]
Autagonistophilia	being on stage or on camera	[10][11]
Autassassinophilia	staging one's own murder	[4]
Autoerotic asphyxiation	self-induced asphyxiation, sometimes to the point of near unconsciousness	[11]
Autoandrophilia	being male	[12][13]
Autogynephilia	being female	[14]
Autonepiophilia	being an infant	[10]
Autopedophilia	being prepubescent	[15]
Biastophilia	assault and rape	[4]
Chremastistophilia	being robbed or held up	[10]
Chronophilia	partners of a widely differing chronological age	[10]
Coprophilia	feces	[16][17]
Cratophilia	strength	[18]
Changophilia	girls morphing during sexual intercourse	[18]
Dendrophilia	Trees	[4]
Diaperism	diapers	[4]
Emetophilia	vomit	[8]
Erotic asphyxia	asphyxia of oneself or others	[19]
Erotophonophilia	murder	[4]
Exhibitionism	exposing oneself sexually to others; variantly with or without their consent	[17]	303.4
Fetishism	nonliving objects	[17]	302.81
Formicophilia	insects, small animals, etc.	[10][20]
Frotteurism	rubbing against a non-consenting person	[17]	302.89
Gerontophilia	old people	[21]
Gynandromorphophilia	women with penises, men cross-dressed as women, or male-to-female transsexuals	[22][23]
Gynemimetophilia	male-to-female transsexuals	[4][23]
Hebephilia	pubescent children	[24][25]
Homeovestism	wearing clothing emblematic of one's own sex	[26][27]
Hybristophilia	criminals, particularly for cruel or outrageous crimes	[10][28]
Infantophilia	children five years old or younger	[29]
Paraphilic infantilism	being a baby	[17]
Kleptophilia, kleptolagnia	stealing	[23]
Klismaphilia	enemas	[17][23]
Knismolagnia	tickling or being tickled
Lactaphilia	human breast milk	[18]
Liquidophilia	attraction to liquids; strong desire to immerse genitals in liquid	[18]
Macrophilia	giants, primarily domination by giant women	[18]
Mammaphilia, mammagynophilia, mastofact	female breasts	[18]
Masochism	suffering, e.g. being humiliated, beaten, bound, etc.	[17]	302.83
Menophilia	menstruation	[18]
Morphophilia	some particular body shape and size	[11]
Mucophilia	human mucus	[18]
Mysophilia	dirtiness, e.g. soiled or decaying things	[23]
Narratophilia	obscenity	[23]
Nasophilia	noses	[18]
Necrophilia	corpses, dead people	[17][30]
Nepiophilia	infants	[10]
Olfactophilia	smells	[8][10][23]
Partialism	particular non-genital body part(s)	[17][23]
Peodeiktophilia	exposing one's penis	[4]
Pedophilia, paedophilia	prepubescent children	[17][31]	302.2
Pedovestism	dressing like a child	[15]
Pictophilia	pornography or erotic art, particularly pictures	[10][23]
Podophilia	feet	[18]
Raptophilia	committing rape	[10]
Robot fetishism	robots; people acting like robots or dressed in robot costumes; transformation into a robot	[32]
Sadism	causing pain	[17]	302.84
Salirophilia	soiling others	[23]
Scatophilia	feces	[18]
Scoptophilia, scopophilia	watching others being sexual	[11]
Shoe fetishism	shoes or other footwear	[33]
Sinophilia	Chinese
Somnophilia	sleeping or unconscious people	[10][23]
Sthenolagnia	strength or muscles	[18]
Stigmatophilia	piercings and tattoos	[4][18]
Symphorophilia	disasters	[4]
Telephone scatologia, Telephonicophilia	obscene phone calls, particularly to strangers	[10][17]
Transvestic fetishism, transvestism	clothing associated with the opposite sex	[17][34]	302.3
Transvestophilia	cross-dressed partner	[10]
Trichophilia	hair	[18]
Troilism, triolism	watching one's partner have sex with someone else, possibly without the third party's knowledge	[11][35]
Urophagia	drinking urine	[8]
Urophilia	urine, particularly urinating in public, urinating on others, and being urinated on by others	[8][10][11][17]
Vampirism, also known as Murphyism	drawing or drinking blood	[36][37]
Vorarephilia	eating or being eaten by others; usually swallowed whole, in one piece	Macrophilia, [38]
Voyeurism	watching others be sexual or naked, particularly without their knowledge	[17]	302.82
Zoophilia	animals (actual, not anthropomorphic)	[8][10][17][23]
Zoosadism	animals' pain

autoerotic asphyxiation

"Erotic asphyxiation refers to intentionally cutting off oxygen to the brain for sexual arousal. It is also called asphyxiophilia, autoerotic asphyxia, scarfing, kotzwarraism, or breath control play. Colloquially, a person engaging in the activity is sometimes called a gasper."-wiki

waves

My ipod shuffle was having technical difficulties its all better now.
Now Playing: The Cars vs DJ Antoine-Just Needed Time.
"It doesn't matter where you been." We all handle life's anomalies different, we all move to our separate rhythms in each of the beats. This is why I love electronic music, there is so many different vibrations that each person is accepted for doing their own dance, if only life was electronic. Well in this digital age, it kinda is.

One has to appreciate the people that come into our lives. Sometimes it is difficult to understand their place within our lives, but luckily being human we are bound to make mistakes and thanks to our brains we are capable of learning from those mistakes. However, we do find ourselves in time warps, (definition of insanity "trying the same thing over and over again expecting different results"). God is in science, but being a scientist of emotions is a dangerous game. All artists understand what this means, whether the artist works with images, words or music.

Being an artist of words is similar to being an actor. It becomes second nature to shuffle through the spectrum of emotions, playing with words. "I like staying up late, eating chocolate cake and snowflakes." I guess the difficult part is being able to recognize when the feelings are real and aren't just self created manifestations but rather vibrations. Than after that comes the hard part, linking up those vibrations and meeting on the same wave lengths. Alcohol and drugs make pseudo wave lengths that we tend to meet up on, 'social lubricant.' This is easy. But finding people with whom we can have legitimate connections without outside variables...when you do, Hold on tight.

*dying.