I just want to listen to music through the headphones of the globe, I'll mix their screams with the cries of laughter. I'll cross over from obese greed and drown it in tragedy. I'll take one shot to a building and ignore the millions of bombs we drop to compensate for our more expensive lives. I'll bask in the glory of being able to eat the African families weight, malnourished and all. I'll parade around in clothes I don't need, expelling exhaust. "everything i could say would feed into insignificance"

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The truth

It was in the Ambiance of the Sun that we found an egg. Prior to this discovery the two brothers constantly fought to become an alpha male and rule over the people inside the sun. Since nobody wished to favor either side and assist in building an army of opposing forces they decided to give ruling rights to whatever dwelt within the egg and until then they decided to let each brother rule equally. They did this by giving one brother the day and one brother night. Since the people of the sun never slept, this was an equal choice and since each brother had his own attraction to day and night there was no feud over this decision.

As the days passed and the egg still had not hatched, the people that lived inside the sun had slowly begun to forget about the egg. The brothers did not mind because they had become fond of day and night. Eventually the egg had been forgotten all together as a incubator for life and had slowly become instead a statue. The inhabits slowly begun to recognize this statue as the balance between day and night forgetting all together that they had once wished it incubated a life form that was to be named king.

to be continued...

In the past, my paradise was in Russian Roulette and that was when I thought there was more to life in Death. As a relative of mine once quoted to me, "Suicide is a Permanent Solution for a temporary Problem." Now that I have had a year of 3 Deaths, and have been in a hospital facing death myself I have learned that truly Life is about living.

This may seem obvious to some and simple, but you have to understand practicing and mastering living is a much different game than simply living. For those of us who have been awaken, we are forced to Practice Life. For those of us who find it so difficult to find beliefs in others religions, and spiritual practices we must pave the way for our own. I myself have chosen the path, of Life is Good. It is simple in saying, but much harder in accepting. However, it is the metronome that is required to keep the rhythm of enjoying life and to give me a reason to continue practice the art of living.

There are many opposing forces out there that sometimes make us question whether or not life has a purpose or meaning to it. The purpose in life, is what you make of it. Just because I believe there is no such thing as luck, since luck is the art of making the best of the hands that life has dealt us, I still do make reasons for why things occur in life. When things are down, I ask myself what am I doing wrong lately and I step back and think about stepping on a new path. When things are going good, I remind myself there is nothing wrong with being happy and not to go back to enjoying life in the storm.

There are forces out there that aid us in understanding how beautiful life truly is and everything it has to offer. There is Love, which has many faces and can be truly deceptive. First of all, the most under appreciated form of love, is that which comes from family members and blood. That love is something we are born into, and like all things that come to us easily or are given to us without work we take for granted. There is one way to avoid this, Family members have to remind each other that the unconditional love we were born into is different from the LOVE we will work to give each other.

They say Blood is thicker than water, but we forget that without water there would be no blood. So do not underestimate the power of friendships and the ability to create family members by choice, not by birth right. The Kings, Princes and Queens who are born into royalty have "landed on third base and believed they have hit a triple" and they will never understand the hard work it takes for someone who has to start from zero unless they themselves lose their throne and have to earn it back.

For those of us who were born with 'little', don't forget the moral of the Count of Monte Cristo, because making those who are born into royalty jealousy and envy is a very dangerous game. Don't forget the order of hierarchy, but don't let it keep you down either. If you are unsatisfied with those above you, remember the Ethopian proverb, "When the master passes the wise peasant bows deeply and silently farts."And remember, when we arrive at where we were going, the greatest experience of it all was the process of getting there. And don't be shy to help those who are struggling, Remember where we came from.


Venomous Vicarious Viper (VS Syndrome)

Too repetitive on our broadcasts are we going to fade out or be tuned out.

The listeners are beginning to wonder if their track is cycling, impatiently they begin fast-forwarding.

I wish I could prove to all of you that the real asshole is the martyr, the person who claims that they are responsible for all of our sins. A self-centered insecure individual that plays the victim of society projecting guilt on an entire nation of people. I rather see someone blame the whole world for their problems than to try and take on the responsibility of everyone's mistakes...and I'm preaching again as if I am any better. The first step towards peace is recognizing humanity inside oneself, imperfection, manufactured by man and woman, dormant when away from nature, sheltered by technology and surrounded by cosmetics and plastic surgery.

Thoughts from my cell phone

I wish I could understand the vibrations that radiate out of your spine like a musical note that I have found myself tone deaf too. It's not that I'm not listening, not that I don't care, it's simply this: I can't hear