I just want to listen to music through the headphones of the globe, I'll mix their screams with the cries of laughter. I'll cross over from obese greed and drown it in tragedy. I'll take one shot to a building and ignore the millions of bombs we drop to compensate for our more expensive lives. I'll bask in the glory of being able to eat the African families weight, malnourished and all. I'll parade around in clothes I don't need, expelling exhaust. "everything i could say would feed into insignificance"

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9.18.2010

Reality

Off the pills.
Reality sank in.
And
To be honest
I simply am bored.



'Some things leave my list after I've done them - others after I've abandoned hope of doing them'

Turns out I am too apathetic to stay addicted to anything. It is good to know that my lack of commitment to anything also includes negative things.

amazing

nymphaeum |nimˈfēəm|

noun ( pl. -phaea |-ˈfēə|)

a grotto or shrine dedicated to a nymph or nymphs.

9.17.2010

9.16.2010

Loud Thoughts & Insomnia

What do you want to do with your life?

"it's a cross between becoming an international criminal and a buddhist monk, I believe somewhere in the middle of that you'd find me"


9.14.2010

Ephiphany

It is pure insanity to go around and try to mould people into what we want them to be, rather than trying to find someone with the characteristics that we want.

3 consecutive dreams in 4 hours

I had a continuos dream from last night where we were forced to play this game and the losing team had to die. The first game I played last night, I was on the winning team and made the winning point. The second time I lost. The losers were taken into this room and they told us we could kill ourselves with this gun. They recommend we use this one to guarantee we do it right the first time. Oddly enough I found myself alive in the third week, 3rd game..even after having been killed. I started talking to people in the arena, reminding them that I was on the losing team in week 2. One of our players, an elderly lady fell off a ledge, hit her head. Said she was fine, but then start talking crazy. Brain damage. During this same dream I remember a part where I was urinating in a urinal and people kept coming in and having conversations with me.

I then had a dream where mutant mossy green man shaped things came out of the water and impregnated everyone by kissing them and putting their seed in our mouths. We sat in fear for days after their first attack, we knew they would come again and the second time there would be more. When they came the second time, I said something weird like 'why don't you just suck my dick' and stood there instead of running, but at the last minute jump kicked the thing in the chest knocking it down. I hid in bushes and then I woke up, went pee..wrote on FB, writing more details here. Going back to sleep

I spent several days, weeks in these dreams, yet I was only asleep for hours



All of this from around 12am - 4.58am right now when I just woke up and finished writing this.

Over

I'm finished

9.12.2010

This is my way of patenting my words



"If you want to be good, you gotta dig into the roots instead of climbing the tree" - Sep 12th 2010 Sean T. Mullen

That song came out in 1999...this is one of many roots of Dubstep.