I just want to listen to music through the headphones of the globe, I'll mix their screams with the cries of laughter. I'll cross over from obese greed and drown it in tragedy. I'll take one shot to a building and ignore the millions of bombs we drop to compensate for our more expensive lives. I'll bask in the glory of being able to eat the African families weight, malnourished and all. I'll parade around in clothes I don't need, expelling exhaust. "everything i could say would feed into insignificance"

Welcome to my Journal. IGNORE GRAMMATICAL ERRORS, or become my Editor


I miss leather, music and accelerated speed
The emptiness of only the road and me
Other passengers like ghosts and echos as I fly
going wherever I wanted, when I wanted, freedom to ride.

Up to 18 carrying myself by foot
A couple tests and I'm pontiac aloof
a couple pills and beers and state st. 2006,
still drove her with a winking eye, an easy fix

At 21 legally allowed to drink,
2009 and my Mercedes slipped into the garbage disposal like soap into the sink.


Bopper Nation Support Unit

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Dexter Season 4 trailer Actual season starts sep 27th
Plus comic-con interviews:

Deb reveals that her character knows dexter has a dark side but chooses to ignore it

Rita acknowledges that the wives of serial killers never really know that their husbands are involved and that even when the evidence is there they will still fight it and deny it cuz when in love you choose to see only the good

John Lithgow from 3rd rock from the sun is the new serial killer in the season :-)

Where is my Mind

I truthfully am Happy and there are a couple people who'd love to crash the cloud I am on and that is fine.


back to the poetry

ahha Alright enough with the fucking preaching, back to the poetry.

I'll write something when I'm feeling inspired. haha..right now I'm working on a mix I'm doing over at my friend chad's over some hookah.

another flashback:

I know a girl that wants to be the colour orange
but don’t know why shes in a rush to be alone
and im never going to see the light in her eyes
If she doesn’t get out of the dark

I know a girl that wants to be the colour orange
without rhythm it's a colour that stands alone

On self destruction

Self Destructive sean came out for a bit, but is now replaced with productive/motivated sean.
I know depressing right? I am quitting alcohol at age 21...for reals. Kinda Sucks butt.
But i got Nicotine (not cigs...hookah) and I got Caffeine (ice tea/lemonade combo).
I got my Electro Music...which gives me a natural high..lectro track marks.
And I got Mixing/Writing. Starting a T-shirt company. Trying to get a job.
Court Dates. Tons of fines to pay. But I have to say "I'm doing alright, I'm doing Ok, Just as long as i survive to see another day."
Most important thing to mention. I am doing the things that make me happy. I am no longer lying to myself about who my friends are, No longer lying to myself about love, no longer lying to myself about my problems either.
Taking responsibility its a mouthful. Back to mixing.

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will NEVER forget how you made them feel." ~ Maya Angelou
thank you crimson angel for the quote aka the hottest 35 year old i know.


Vitalic "Birds"


333 is the code for my disaster cycle:
Ventura Incident 2003, Crashed Pontiac Firebird 2006, Crashed Mercedes 2009
-=Hiccups included in between=-

A funny email

Recently I was contacted by my own private email by a Don Mac Phee

show details 3:43 AM (6 hours ago)
If you're the author of keepthesunshining, I would like to correspond with you privately.

I assure you that ANY information exchanged would be kept in the strictest of confidences.

If you are not interested, please reply and let me know. I'll understand.


this is the website he is referring to..if you go there you'll immediately realize one of my many pseudo names (inside the sun) has no connection with this website WHATSOEVER...except maybe the blog on michael jackson I found that interesting everything else including the title was a foreign language


Video of the Year


Hopefully I don't become a zombie.


Be true to Thy self

I think I'm going to submit myself to AA. Which means I have to give up beautiful wine.
I still call dibs on Pharmaceuticals, Caffeine and Nicotine. Apparently they don't count.
I am slowly erasing my memory.
My closest friends are controversial in nature.



The worse curse mankind could have bestowed on a human being is good looks, at least one such as myself. 21 Years old and still sucking at my mothers teet. Every 3 years I tend to have some kind of ridiculous fuck up that tarnishes my life for a year and I recover, fix things up and become a somewhat better person only to rinse and repeat. Kidney Failure, Crashing firebird/under influence of Cocaine charge and most recently totalling my Mercedes 300e and receiving a DUI even though I only blew a .05 oh and a Hit and run because my stupid ass called the cops and tryed to report my car as stolen...a block away from the incident..wearing the same clothes etc. At least the cop who took me in was cute.
I come from beautiful santa barbara where I am under the impression that things should be handed to me where as everyone else understands that we should have to work for things in our life. I've had 3-4 jobs. Years of school and I've probably worked a total of 24 hours in my life. I am Lazy messy and selfish.
There is a lack of joy in my life because I'm smart enough to know all of this and it helps me to look down on myself. I enjoy getting a rise out of people, that accounts for some of my humor. I play with music and I write. I am the kind of person you can be friends with....from a distance.


This is what is called a trend.
I've totaled a 1984 Pontiac Firebird
and a 1989 Mercedes Benz.
Thank god I can't afford a beamer.
the arts are dangerous
So is driving under the influence.
I blew a .05 though.